Week 1 ( - 5.4 pounds)

There is this calmness about losing weight right now. I am not going to try and fool myself into thinking- or pretending to think- that I am trying to feel happier, and have more energy; losing weight is just a side benefit. I don't step on the scale every morning to weigh my energy.

No, I want to lose weight. I'm not thinking goals or even rewards at this point. I'm just thinking that when I wake up in the morning, I have to make the best decisions I am capable of making until I return to bed that night.

I have written down the foods I have eaten each day. Some days I could tally the calories. On other days I could not because I didn't know the counts of some things that entered my mouth. And, that's okay. I still made smart decisions. That I know.

I have been reminded how much a good night's sleep aids good health. In the past, I knew the numbers on the scale would budge less on nights that I stayed up late, as I am prone to do. I see it now on nights when I get up at 3ish and weigh myself. Then, when I step on the scale again a few hours later there is a measurable difference. I guess it is because the body needs to be at rest to metabolize at a efficient rate? I don't know. I might look it up one day...and maybe even make a "real" informative post about it.

I have done well with drinking water. I have to stay conscious of it during the school day because I can get so wrapped up in my day that I easily forget. I have had a soda once in the past week- a canned Diet Coke. It tasted sickingly sweet. It was only after not having one for three days, so maybe that was psychologically influenced.

A couple of days I didn't work out. My fall back has been Wii Fit. If nothing else I will do the Free Step... although it is much more entertaining on the nights that I do the run. I dislike running in place so I will jog laps around the living room/ dining room/ kitchen. The entertainment comes much more from picturing the fool I am from a bird's eye view than the actual activity. I try to schedule the times for when I am home- or at least downstairs- alone, but am proud of myself for not being quick to hide when Jason or the boys come in.

I am going to do this.